Headache.
I know. I don’t feel so good lately.
Trying hard to function without any pills and just be myself.
Throbbing pain is such a nuisance.
I’m missing the comfort.
And it goes without saying..
Welcoming myself back after a brief blogging hiatus.
So many things to tell, tapi malas nak citer.
Last Friday, main Futsal somewhere kat Pudu tuh. 2D Futsal. Petang tu paww MH teh tarik, roti sardin and teh o ais. Teruk dia kenakan. Ish. Then lepas Maghrib gi ngan dia skali, me, Farah, Zana and En Nuar. Sesat plak org tua ni.. siap bukak Blackberry GPS, tapi katanya tempat dia ngorat dulu, don’t worry. Tak larat dengar tu semua. Haha.
Lastly, sampai gak akhirnya walaupun ada org bising kete dia kotor sebab lecak. Esok nak gi menebas di padang golf.
Macam kilang je aku tengok tempat tu. Hehe. Janji main. Kena main 4 rounds. I played all. Tak bawak camera, so ni amik from blog Farah. Edited by me. Didn’t win anything, Liverpool menang. Not bad for someone yg 1st time main. Lenguh kaki, especially peha. Hurts like hell, skang pun sakit. Adoii.. Few bruises. Ankle tu ada org sepak. ^*%&^@.
Semalam, went for physio. Bestnya, ultrasound, Tens and ice-pack. Sakit gak tapi amat best and melegakan. Semalam takde wat anything on the neck sebab busy suh dia attend to my injuries, futsal punya pasal. Dia nak suh dtg lagi skali next week before dia send report to the neurologist. Habis ler aku.. I think I’m gonna re-schedule appointment ngan neurologist tuh, to next year.
Begitulah kisahnya..
Nota kaki hamster:
Tetiba teringat kat Kakak.. how is she doing agaknya? Praying for her safety and health.. One week down, 3 to go.
At times like this, it's best not to blog.
A blogging hiatus.
Til' I found out what exactly do I want and need.
Life is simple but it is not easy.
Had a not-so-peaceful goodnight sleep. Will not be receiving the usual ‘good-nite, sleep tight, +motivation’ text messages for quite a while.
Last night’s dinner at Berjaya Times Square Hotel was fun. It was not a grand affair, but we had fun. We booked a room to get ourselves ready for the “Glitz & Glam” night. A crowd of about 10 pax inside a room, full of laughter and madness. Haha. My friends look great in their outfits. Me? Don’t think so.
Should go for my physio but didn’t set any appointment today. I’m staring at a long weekend ahead of me, long and boring weekend. Movie? Ermm. 2012? Ermm. Shopping? Ughh.Maybe I need time to be alone for a while. Maybe boleh kemas almari baju? I dunno. I got like loads of stuff dlm bilik ni. Maybe I’ll just read ‘Three Cups of Tea”.
By the way, I received my member’s card sebab selalu beli pen Parker etc. I almost forgot about it. Got two vouchers and some kinda clip. Card color black. Cool. Last Parker pen set I bought was for Kakak rasanya. Ye ke kak? I lupa. I got one for myself months ago.
Ok. Gotta force myself up. The weather looks so gloomy. Macam my mood. Empty. But no, not gonna elaborate on my mood and emotions for quite some time. I think I should keep it inside. Nobody really understand anyway. And I’m so need of a long break. Or maybe a distraction. A hefty workload would do the thing. Tapi keje banyak, complain. Tapi buat gak.
This gotta end soon. Kakak came for a while and left. I’m a lil’ bit sad tapi ada org dah warning jangan cengeng kan tadi.. So I maintained my composure. Dia pun dah pujuk tadi, jangan merajuk. Takde dah. I’m cool now. *nak dipujuk by her and hugs je*
Well, I guess there’s nothing left to say.
Wishing her a very pleasant journey. Will always pray for her safety, health and well-being and to get ‘haji yang mabrur’. Saya sayang Kakak saya. 
Don’t ask me why, I dunno why. Things happen for various reasons and God sent someone into my life always for a reason. Everything’s eventual.
And as I mentioned to her over and over again, told her “you changed me, in certain ways”.
What I’m gonna miss most?
Ceramah free almost every day, especially whenever we go back home together.
Her text messages that never fail to make me laugh, typo error sana sini. Haha.
Her ‘garangness’ vs my ‘mengada-ness’. Tapi melayan gak kan..
Ceramah free lagi whenever I got her something.. “I told you again and again not to get me anything and to spend money on me”.. Well, I don’t really listen to you.
Our friendly banter..yang kekadang I lost..or simply bagi chance dia menang je.
And gonna miss the ‘cubaan memujuk’. =( Saya amat manja and mengada kan..
That’s enough. 1 whole posting about my Kakak.
The end.
Nota kaki hamster:
Ada org told me, ok lah tu dpt hugs semua. Org dalam bilik tu lagi tak dpt pun. Hehe. Haihh, kena berebut kasih sayang. Let the game begins..
Made a promise that all this emotional outbursts will end by next Monday.
Still feels empty.
I feel empty. I wish that I can fast-forward time.. Me gonna miss you guys.
I have to say goodbye to 2 of the closest people in my life this week.
One is going away for 40-days but will definitely be back but still I’m gonna miss my Kakak.
One is going away to continue his studies abroad, maybe he’ll be back in 2 or 3 years time. There’s always the Internet to connect us but, it’s not the same.
I’m feeling emotional. I’m reluctant to say goodbye to both but I have too. It’s unavoidable.
To my Kakak, have a good and pleasant trip for your pilgrimage. I’ll always pray for your safety and health while you were away. Gonna miss our friendly banter and you’re gonna miss my ‘merajuk’ and my nonsense and my text messages and I’m gonna miss the ‘garangness’, the ‘ceramah’ , the comfort and just about everything.
To that guy, I’m happy for you, make your family proud and make me proud. Study well and I’m gonna miss the comfort and laughter and just gonna miss everything.
It is so hard because I’m quite close to both. Kakak and Abang (and Adik – that’s me). Both showered me with care, comfort and happiness. Both play an important part in my life, a part of me and help me look at life from a different perspectives.
*Every goodbye makes the next ‘hello’ closer*
*I wanna cry when I post this..wanna call my confidant for comfort..and for last conversation..maybe*
Just came back from APSH. Afiq’s doing fine and Efan is so so so cheeky. Hehe. Comel. Bawak dia gi main at the toy room, I ended up building castle for him. Aikk? Hehe.
Today Kak Eda belanja us makan @ Secret Recipe, The Weld. Thanks Kak Eda. Monday is hardly productive.. Gelak je banyak depan IM kan..
Agaknya Na tengah wat apa ni? Practise tomoi kick? Hahaha.. Tak pun siap carik suar tomoi. Aku rasa semua tgh carik suar tomoi, Fazila tadi ckp pasal sponge bob..haha. Aku nak suar Elmo, dah tempah kat Kak Ton.
*see I’m laughing again*
My left thigh still hurting. Sapu ubat byk-byk, mcm nak terbakar je jadinya. Malam ni try ubat lain. If not, I’ve to go to the physio. That is so unavoidable. Sampai bila nak jalan mcm ni. The best part is, I stay away from pain killers. Bagus kan.
I need to cancel my appointment with the Neurologist / Counselor. Kena ‘ceramah’ about 45 mins last Saturday. Haihh. Next year I’ll be seeing you again I guess, sebab throughout Dec 09, dia away for holiday rasanya.
Hari ni saya balik sendiri. Ok takpe. Kena practice balik sendiri kot.. Hehe. No big deal. Ajak Kakak gi lawat whatever pesta yang ada kat concourse area, dia takmo. Told her, busy je, hardly had time for me. Then, kenalah keluar ayat ‘merajuk’ kan. =(
Esok ada perlawanan tomoi kat 29th. My imagination is running wild. Haha. Adoi adoi, gelak lagi sorang sorang.
Aik. Belum main futsal dah injured aku ni..
Left thigh muscle kelam kabut. Over-stretch ke apa. Takkan sebab pepagi stretch macam hamster jadi camni?
Ada yg gi lawat doctor and physio lagi ni kang.. Kaki payah sket la.. kena bukak baju + seluar.. Ni yg m a l a s. Huaaaaaaaaaa.. Sakit.
Huaa. Sakit..
Huaaaa. Sakit.
*drama queen*
Nota kaki hamster: The battle begins at 11.55 pm. Mesti habis 2 am. 6 am kena bangun and gi kerja. Camne ni? Kena tengok ni.. Sanggup ke tdo 4 jam je ni?
